March 27th, 2010

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Trust in the Lord/Being in Fellowship With The Lord

Proverbs 3:5-7
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and depart from evil.

Lord, I want to trust in you with all my heart. Teach me how to do so. Direct my path as I seek to acknowledge you in all that I do. I love you, Jesus, God, Holy Spirit; I love you more than I love anyone else. Please, direct my path.

Recently I told someone something, something I had planned on addressing at the end of the corporate fast I'm participating in with my church. Given the preceding conversation we had, I'm not sure it was received the way I had hoped.

So what happened? I tried to be like Abraham and take the lead in God's will. I was afraid that I wouldn't have the opportunity to say what I said again, so I acted on my own. I've physically suffered from it. I had an upset stomach almost all day.

Because I didn't have trust in the Lord, because I tried to lean on my own understanding I stepped out on my own and side-stepped God and now I'm going to have to face the consequences on Sunday when I see the person face to face. To say I'm scared is an understatement. I didn't give the person a chance to respond (I was being shooed off to bed so I could get some sleep for work, though I would have willingly stayed up for a full 24-hour period). So I'm scared. I'm absolutely terrified and now I have no choice to trust in the Lord for His will. I had a choice before and I chose to act before the Lord was ready to reveal all to me and I chose to act in a way that isn't keeping with the way God has set up the household.

At first I was worried that, because I tried to do for myself what the Lord had already promised to do for me (and quite possibly not with the person I was focusing on), I had stepped out of fellowship with Him completely. While I'm no Abraham, I can take heart from Abraham to know that even though I sinned against Him, He still loves me and wants to fulfill His will for me (and I have asked for his forgiveness). If I let Him. Abraham wound up letting Him and he was blessed with Isaac, the father of all nations.

We often hear quoted from Ecclesiastes how a threefold cord is not quickly broken. I think to understand that fully, though, one needs to look at the whole section.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, for he has no one to help him up. Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm; but how can one be warm alone? Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

This isn't talking just about human friendship. Look at the example of the triune Godhead. God the father, God the Son (Jesus Christ), God the Holy Spirit. Three made one. The perfect example of a threefold cord which cannot be broken. Being human, though, we are imperfect because of our sin nature. Because of that we often fall away and leave the others weakened and ourselves weakest.

What has this to do with the quote from Proverbs? Both speak of not being alone. In Proverbs 3:5 it says lean not on your own understanding and then Ecclesiastes 4:12 starts out saying Though one may be overcome. While Proverbs warns against just relying on your own understanding, Ecclesiastes comes out and says one may be overcome. You cannot do things on your own. First we need to have "trust in the Lord" (Prov 3:5), why? So that we may not be overcome. With a friend we can be lifted up. Who better to have as a friend then God Himself? He can lift us up out of anything and everything. Not because we are good and holy and righteous. It clearly states in scripture that are best works are likened to filthy rags. No, God wants to lift us up so that we may give Him the glory He rightly deserves as our Creator.

Who are your two best friends? Is it someone you haven't talked to in years and barely hear from? Or is it someone next to you, lifting you up and encouraging you when everyone else wants to kick you down or even forget about you? What about the Lord? Our trust needs to be first and foremost with Him.

When our trust wavers, when we go it alone, we are easily overcome. We are quickly broken. But God is still there to pick us up, forgive us when we ask Him for His forgiveness, and set us back down on the path to righteousness (in His eyes, not our own) if we let Him (goes back to trust).

So where do I go from here? I go to church, I face the person, and I accept the consequences of stepping out on my own. Than I seek God's will once more. Will I fall again? Probably, I am after all only human. Will God still use me? Yes, as long as I am willing; just as Abraham was still willing to let God use Him for God's glory. This also doesn't change how I feel. I don't want to walk out of God's will but I cannot deny how I feel. Maybe it isn't God's will that I have any relationship with this person anymore, maybe it is. That's what I need to seek now. Stop focusing on my own needs and desires. Give up my dreams and my desires and take on His. I pray that the Holy Spirit lead me as I do not know the way. I trust in the Lord to show me, through the Spirit, the way He wants me to walk.

Pray for me, brothers and sisters. Accept my repentance as genuine and pray for me. Regardless of what happens, may God's will be done and not my own and not her own but only God's for His will is perfect and just.

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Originally published at Ameliorations 1.0.

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