December 26th, 2000


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Man, some people's have big balls. Someone posted a comment to my journal (which is all well and fine), but this one in particular seems to go around reading other peoples journals and a regular (and purely random, me thinks) basis. Says I need to "change my focus". *shrugs* Whatever. I hate change. I will stay single and as for my comment about getting a woman pregnant, I don't think I have to worry 'bout that as my chemo-therapy probably took care of that worry for me (yep, thats right, probably something like a 90% chance of me being impotent). Kinda ironic if you think about it, the treatment that saves my life prevents me from bringing a new life into this world, heh. What a cruel fucking joke life has played on me.

A .22 rifle with the barrel in my mouth and me pulling the trigger looks real good right about now.

Damn, I wonder how I remove people from my friends list...seems as if I've inadvertantly alienated a "friend" and she no longer wants to have anything to do with me. Can't really say that I blame her as I don't want anything to do with me, but we all have our little problems.

Yesterday was the only good day I've had in about 5-6 months, sad isn't it?

Well, anyways...l8r'z, and in the immortal words of ICP (Insane Clown Posse), "FUCK OUTTA HEAR IF YOU AIN'T DOWN WITH THE CLOWNZ!"
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Damn Me!

Yeah, you read that right, and the only reason that is the subject of this post is 'cause I'm including a poem that is entitled the same.

As a matter of fact, thats the only reason for this post so there.

Damn me! - damn me and my unstoppable soul!
Damn me for wanting
I do damn me for not having
In hell is where I live
In hell, where you can never have
That which you want.

I say to thee that thou are not
To be blamed for what I suffer
And go through, but I know
It hurts you to see me this way
And it kills me eternaly
To make you hurt.

I reach for the sky,
Only to trip on the steps
That would take me there
I lose sight of all that matters
Except for you
And when I finally make it to the top
You are gone.

Damn me! - damn me and my undying love!
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    "Exuse Me Mr." by No Doubt